What are your plans for the year?

"For I know the plans I have for you, declares the Lord, plans for welfare and not for evil, to give you a future and a hope."

New Year- Thoughts and Dreams

Taking some time now to blog some thoughts down for 2013, I know its Feb but they always say CNY is our second new year.

I believed I have failed to consistently looked upon my life purposefully for quite a while. In short, life feels crowded up and there is less time spent on deliberation of ideas. My thoughts many a times are mixed and cluttered along with things I read/learn about both online and as I study. The people whom I interact with, the food I eat, the activities I engage in, shaped and unknowingly pulled me on to forming what so many people call their identity.

I feels almost like I have not taken a stand strong enough. Like Christ was not where I root myself in, not where I would lose myself in so that I could be found in Him. (Matthew 10:39)  Pride overrides the need for dependency. Often I thought I was good, alone, with friends, with studies, with sports, with games.Perhaps it's because of dissatisfaction with what I have, thinking I could have so much more.

Its been more than a year for CNY for 2014 has past too. This is an unfinished post and I'm publishing this post just for administrative sake (clearing up the clutter of draft posts in this blog)

Whatever that is true...

"Oh how the mighty has fallen"
If there's anything worth mentioning at this post of my life, it will be just that. It felt as though I had gone downhill in my life.

As I briefly read through my previous few posts, it dawned upon me that I had almost completely lost it. I had almost lost that art of thinking and mediation. My life now is filled with so much noise. Friends in school, friends from swimming, computer games. It's to the point where I see myself doing badly in school work. If I'm able to pull it through this semester, it could only be by His grace and mercy.

I have to confess that I had intentionally spent more time with friends from school beyond school work and time since this semester. I do acknowledge that the company was great, lectures/tutorials seems more fun and it's like a good cure for loneliness. Yet, along with it comes its perils, there is a decrease in concentration,

This post was written last semester (I believe 3-4 months back) and its shocking to see how much things have changed since.