Time has indeed flew past since army,work and the long break. To be granted the chance to start studying again at a local university is indeed God's grace and I do think it's only right I stay mindful of this. Yet, with this I am somewhat overwhelmed with the challenges and pressure to even study. The anxiety and fear of not able to cope well seems to consume my thought life. My father was telling me awhile back of how I have been praying for a place to study these 2 years and then suddenly becoming so skeptical of even studying when the chance comes. Maybe because of who I am. I don't think I am disciplined enough for independent living. I don't think I can juggle studies with other things well. Maybe, just maybe.
People-pleasing and the likes of it. The 'new' series the youths are going through in Sunday School really set me thinking for abit. I do see myself being such a people-pleaser at times, sadly. It's quite a lesson for me to know why, who, when, what, how of people pleasing.
I shall not wallow in my seat anymore. Salvation seems so real to me recently, how the idea of 'working out' my salvation, sharing of my testimonies make me realise we all only can stand redeemed by the blood of the Lamb that was slain for own sin.
"Armed by faith and winged by prayer" Faith and prayer seems all the more essential in our journey upwards.
Keep me in prayers and pray for the many lost souls out there. (I have been meeting many old, new friends and many of them aren't really Christians so pray for my roommate, the new faces in church, friends, and many more). I know God is still in the business of saving souls.
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