Continued

My strength comes from the God who created heavens and the earth. (Psalm 121, more remembered by the favorite chinese children song)

God is my strength, and in Him will I trust.

Back to blogging and it sort of is an indicative sign of my continued spiritual walk with God, after quite awhile, unfortunately.

This month or so has been a time of thinking and reading, after like a whole month of wandering of sort. Basically, God got kinda clouded out before I do come back to draw near to Him again. I must say, this once intimate relationship and closeness with God wouldn't and ain't as rich and full as before once fellowship is broken for that brief period of time.

So here are some thoughts, afterthoughts, which sort of stuck in my mind, or at least inside my notes.

Evaluating on my character, I was:
A 'moderate' guy, in my views, actions and words. I seek to be included by being 'moderate'. By that, I thought I wouldn't be missing out. I cannot be more wrong.
This past few months, I've believed I have grown much closer to my platoon mates in camp, to the extent of willingness to spent extra time together out of camp. And I really did. Be it watching movie, having a meal together or playing computer games together.
Despite all the 'harmless' fun I enjoy, I was quite troubled by this lifestyle. It is bothering me, and I conclude I have lost distinctiveness as a child of God. I have become blend in flavor and dimmed off in the process of being 'moderate'.
Being 'moderate' would had me compromised many values if say I had absolutely zero fellowship with good brothers and sisters in Christ whose testimonies outshine in their life. I would accept whatever I was taught by flippant, 'worldly' friends that was 'moderately' right. It would mould my character bit by bit towards a slippery downhill to the bottomless pit of compromises and sin.

On being a "I am missing out on something" man. Missing out on gatherings, meet-ups, especially with church folks, make me kind of uncomfortable. Say youth meetings, or sunday school outing. Although I value the fellowship with my brothers and sisters in Christ more, deep down inside I do know I am missing the whole point, if my focus is on fellowship and not God's will. Knowing that His will is perfect, means knowing that He has a better plan for me than fellowship. As how one book puts it, "I was missing out on God's best"
The worst scenario I could thought of would be the losing of a chance to save just one soul because I thought I was missing out on the good 'fun' I can get from my friends when I joined the BBQ get together instead of being in church to witness to this man who's heart is ready.

That's kinda farfetched in my thinkings though. But that's about it. Really hope to blog soon about 'REALITY' that shocks, and the real impacts, influences...... (A reminder and I am all the more encouraged)

Suggestions on links to good sites to read on? I didn't really found any, but do check up on 9marks official website in light of the upcoming sunday school lesson in church. Good simple questions on the site about church.