Where is the first love?

It really seems God is really really silent.
Lyrics of "When God is silent"
When God is Silent and we don't know
The way before us that we ought to go;
When we've attempted to do His will,
And yet His silence continues still;

Then it's time to trust and Yes, it's time to remember
That the Lord is faithful to his own.
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For His silence never means that we are alone.

I liked that reassurance of the last sentence. There is just this weird distant feeling I had when I attended church and youth meeting yesterday. The same feeling I had for the week.
I was really comforted during Friday when I went over to joey's house. We had a good talk and I still see God working in ways never will I thought of. My prayer is that he will come back really soon.
Sometimes saying something and really meaning it does not goes together. I have learnt that being thankful and trusting God is not a matter saying it, but by your very actions from then on.
Its a matter of being serious and a right attitude. This is about doing business with God and we all have this responsibility to do it well. Thats why Christian living is never never easy. Cannot just pull the plug when life's circumstances is against you.
Understanding that love will always bind God and us, just as love will intertwine and forms this fellowship between brothers and sisters in Christ.
My main prayer will still be for the church, being always watchful and careful (1 Peter 5:8). I am just fearful of what can happen if things are left unchecked.
God is still good and I really mean it though it all seems silent now.

Matthew 22: 34-40
But when the Pharisees heard that He had silenced the Sadducees, they gathered together. Then one of them, a lawyer, asked Him a question, testing Him, and saying, “Teacher, which is the great commandment in the law?” Jesus said to him, “ ‘You shall love the LORD your God with all your heart, with all your soul, and with all your mind.’ This is the first and great commandment. And the second is like it: ‘You shall love your neighbor as yourself.’ On these two commandments hang all the Law and the Prophets.”