God is showing me-

His mercies and grace,
His love,
His power and sovereignty,
The hope of His glory,
His will.

Many many things day by day, moment by moment.

Yet I seek not, run away and even show that lost in faith.
From selfish plans to God's grand plan is like from the very east to the very west, split apart by that never crossable pit of despair when things do not go well.

Its interesting how God placed people whom He thinks I am not done with back to my life. I guess I have been somewhat "hiding" behind my ever finite human thinking of "why I am who I am now?", when in fact I should be searching for answers in His word.
When such "hiding" behind this smokescreen and empty wall gets me nowhere, I proceed to try to "sleep" my way through, foolishly hoping that things will straighten up by itself.

I am thankful for the all the little verses in the bible that I have "hid" in my heart. I thought it will be much better talking off to God alone and for Him to just grant me that wisdom and discernment in His word, through His spirit working and going by faith.

I guess its all about God, not man. His will, not mine.
Many ideas have been contemplated in my mind, still seeking and looking for His kind and gracious revelation on how life can be lived for God's Glory and His alone.